35.Beautiful & Cruel 美麗的和殘酷的 I am an ugly daughter. 我是一個丑丫頭。 I am the one nobody comes for. 我是那個沒人來要的丫頭。 Nenny says she won't wait her whole life for a husband to come and get her, that Minerva's sister left her mother's house by having a baby,?but she doesn't want to go that way either. 蕾妮說她不會一輩子等一個丈夫來要她，密涅瓦的姐姐生了個寶寶，才離開了她媽媽的家，可她不想走她的路。 She wants things all her own, to pick and choose. 她想要事事隨她的意，她要挑挑揀揀。 Nenny has pretty eyes and it's easy to talk that way if you are pretty. 蕾妮長著漂亮的眼睛。如果你很漂亮，那么說當然就很容易了。 My mother says when I get older my dusty hair will settle and my blouse will learn to stay clean,?but I have decided not to grow up tame like the others who lay their necks on the threshold waiting for the ball and chain. 我媽媽說等我長大點的時候，我澀澀的頭發(fā)會變得清亮，我穿的上衣會一直干凈整潔?？晌覜Q定不要長大變成像別人那么溫順的樣子，把脖子擱在門檻上等待甜蜜的枷鏈。 In the movies there is always one with red red lips who is beautiful and cruel. 電影里總有一個嘴唇紅紅、美麗又殘酷的女人。 She is the one who drives the men crazy and laughs them all away. 是她讓男人發(fā)狂，是她大笑著讓男人落荒而逃。 Her power is her own. 她的力量是她自己的。 She will not give it away. 她不會放棄它。 I have begun my own quiet war. Simple. Sure. I am one who leaves the table like a man, without putting back the chair or picking up the plate. 我已經(jīng)開始了我自己的沉默的戰(zhàn)爭。簡單。堅定。我是那個像男人一樣離開餐桌的人，不把椅子擺正來，也不拾起碗筷來。