Dexter didn’t like to think of himself as vain, but there were definitely times when he wished there was someone on hand to take his photograph.
They kissed again, and he wondered vaguely if there was some moral or ethical dimension to this situation. Of course the time to worry about the pros and cons of sleeping with a student would have been after the College party, while Tove was perching unsteadily on the edge of his bed and unzipping her knee-length boots. Even then, in the muddle of red wine and desire he had found himself wondering what Emma Morley would say. Even as Tove twirled her tongue in his ear, he had conducted his defence: she’s nineteen, an adult, and anyway I’m not a real teacher. Besides, Emma was a long way away at this moment, changing the world from a mini-bus on the ring road of a provincial town, and what was all this to do with Emma anyway? Tove’s knee-length boots sagged in the corner of the room now, in the hostel where overnight visitors were strictly forbidden.
He shifted his body to a cooler patch of terracotta, peering out of the window to try to gauge the time from the small square of vivid blue sky. The rhythm of Tove’s breathing was changing as she slipped into sleep, but he had an important appointment to keep. He dropped the last two inches of cigarette into a wine glass, and
stretched for his wristwatch, which lay on an unread copy of Primo Levi’s If This is a Man .
‘Tove, I’ve got to go.’ She groaned in protest.
‘I’m meeting my parents, I’ve got to leave now.’
‘Can I come too?’
He laughed. ‘Don’t think so, Tove. Besides you’ve got
a grammar test on Monday. Go and revise.’
‘You test me. Test me now.’
‘Okay, verbs. Present continuous.’
She coiled one leg around him, using the leverage to pull herself on top of him. ‘I am kissing, you are kissing, he is kissing, she is kissing . . .’
He pulled himself up on his elbows. ‘Seriously, Tove . . .
’
‘Ten more minutes,’ she whispered in his ear, and he
sank back to the floor. Why not, he thought? After all, I’m in Rome, it’s a beautiful day. I am twenty-four years old, financially secure, healthy. I ache and I am doing something that I shouldn’t be doing, and I am very, very lucky.
The attraction of a life devoted to sensation, pleasure and self would probably wear thin one day, but there was still plenty of time for that yet.